Oh man. What is it about this time of year makes it prime for suicide and depression? Apparently, the Guardian wonders about that too: http://www.guardian.co.uk/science/2005/may/12/mentalhealth.society
According to Thompson, the seasonal changes that bring most of us out of winter apathy may work against those who are coming out of severe depression. “It is a harsh irony that the partial remission which most depression sufferers experience in the spring often provides the boost of energy required for executing a suicide plan,” he says. “Spring is a time for new beginnings and new life, yet the juxtaposition between a literally blooming world and the barren inner life of the clinically depressed is often too much for them to bear.”
The winter was a bummer, but yeah… the Spring is kicking my ass. At least I’m not alone? It’s a grim consolation. Luckily, I have music and art for medicine. Here is a great TED talk with an incredible violin performance at the end :
I’m listening to music now, coloring random shapes in my sketchbook, playing dress up, drinking coffee and trying to remember that I feel good about my life. How could I forget that? Well… let’s just call it bad head chemistry. Waking up from hibernation and feeling like I’ve lost the race. Only, there is no race and I haven’t lost anything really. In fact, there’s some really cool stuff I’ve been finding lately!
AHHHHH Tool. One of the best cures for depression I know.
And finally… A way to use sheer panic to your advantage and how we are ultimately the stories we tell ourselves from Hollywood/Bollywood director Shekhar Kapur:
Maybe that’s why I wanted to start a blog in the first place… to be more conscious of the story I’m telling myself. I’m the one living this thing! I just need to direct my mood a little more … maybe I pretend I’m the star in my own movie and have a cheery director behind the camera reminding me of all the things I have to feel good about in each scene. Sure, there’s some violence, intrigue and drama once in a while… But I’m pretty sure this movie has a happy ending.
I’m gonna go ponder the genre of my life-movie now, what type of movie would your life be? And what would be the soundtrack? Do you have superpowers?